friends

It has been a while that i din't write my blog.I started to missed all my friends, not just secondary school friends but all my friends from my childhood friend until my secondary school friends.Oh God, I wish that i have time to spend with all my friends.Suddenly i missed him more then any other friends, not because he is my lover but he is like a brother to me. He is my childhood friend , we went to the same school since 4 years old but until the Year 6 . But after that we has separate to continue our life.That was until my 12 years old memory.I wish to see him again but it is quite difficult because after the UPSR we went to different school. And now already passed 7 years we did not contact with each other and we both has lost the contact number. Oh God please give me more time to let it go.I don't know when we will see each other again maybe we still see other after many years later or maybe not. Now just let God make the decision. Yes or no, who know? Life has been many changes, that time we are just 12 years old now we are 19 years old. But lucky my brother were still get the contact of his brother.Maybe 1 day we will meet each other again but the situation will be a bit different from what we expected.

Now a days, i am been very busy on my homework. And i get the complain from many people. Because of my homework i can't go out with them, then i get those complain again and again. They think every come easy but does they have ever think that thing come easy and go easy. Sometimes i really want to cry because of they don't understand my situation.But i told my self no mater what happen i will not give up my studies although they make all those complain to me but i will not cry.Not just to let them know i am strong i can handle everything well, but to tell them if you don't ever try to understand other people situation and keep complaining you will lose the friend of yours. Try to think from other people situation maybe thing will be different. The differences between you and other people is just a wall between you and them, if you ever want thing change to be better it is depend on how far you willing to find out.

My friends always ask me why i don't want to have a boyfriend, this question always border me a lot. No because i don't want but they way people treat me is not the same way that you all have been treat. If you guys ever remember when i was in Sentosa then maybe you all may think it in other way. The things that has happen when in secondary school it takes some times to let it go. The way they treat me is worst, you are not me you won't understand. All the thing that comes to you comes easy but mine i always need to work so hard to get it to my hand. Thing don't comes easy for me, and i guess that makes me more stronger to face everything.

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME

It has been a while i did not post a new blog. It has been a very difficult week for me to cope with my assignment , it is also getting less and less time for me to chatting with my friends even when i log in. But there also no people want to chat with me since i have a fight with HIM even he is online. But a little while later he came up and ask me weather want to go out for movies with the others but i was busy so i say no . He din't say anything but i guess i know what is in his mind. Maybe somewhere in his mind were scolding me that because i cannot go out with them. I know i have been missed a lot of chance that are be able to see them again. Of course i wish to see you guys again but this wasn't my fault not coming out to see. I wish that you can understand my difficulty to see you all again. I dont blame you so scolding but i am asking to understand it.

I AM SICK TODAY

Sometimes i do want to rest but the works in my hand could not finish at all.I wish someone can help me with this. My friends always ask me to go out to have tea with them but my assginment still haven't finish so i tell them i cannot go , and he say this to me: i always got excuss not to go out to have tea with them and say that next time they would't ask me again . What kind of friends is this, he think that i will always be free to go out .He did not know that what kind of life while you are studying college.Ya, he is now working sure got time to go out for tea. He did not think for me , the place i stay are very far from them so sure after thet have tea sure can go back so fast .He did not think of my safety. How could he say this to me. Now i would never speak to him anymore.....I MEAN IT .DONT THINK I AM A FOOL .YOU ARE SO SELFFISH