Twilight Soundtrack[Flightless Bird, American Mouth]

I wish this will come true

In the way of a lot of people look at me with those eyesight give me creeps but i am not afraid of them it just have these uncomfortable feeling. Last year, i meet him. But that time i just have these friends feeling to him but time pass by, my classmate make fun of me and him.It make feel embarrass in front of him. In the same time , i got this feeling like i had never had before.Although i am not sure what kind of feeling is this.Sometimes it just make me feel like want to smile without joke.He is kind of funny guy and the thing we like are almost the same. Maybe because we are the only people that can chat in chinese in that place. Sometime i just like to look at his smilling face.Its kind of fascinating to me. The way he talk to me and the way he laugh keeps on bugging me all the time.I wish the feeling inside me are the right feeling. I am 20 years old this year i wish that i wont celebrate the next birthday alone again. although i got friends celebrating with me but i still feeling lonely. The happiness of friends and lover is different. This year birthday i was celebrating with my classmate and not with him. I wish his coming birthday will be celebrating in a great time.Happy Birthday to him on the 18th of this month.Wish you all the best.

It has been one year i din't not touch my blog. Some times i do feel like being played like a fool in front of ever one.I do wish that i could go some where else to let go all my stress.Sometime when you are the youngest and alone you feel like being pushed around doing thing for the others. Oh God , i wish they relies that not everyone would help them to get what they want.People just like to pushed the dirty job to you and never look back. And at last you are the one who get blame for all the wrong. They just keep pointing their finger to you. Those people who thinks that every thing must come to them easily and the people who help them were left for dead. Unfair society make the world getting worst and worst. I am not try to blame them for their behavior, just may God be beside them all the time. Or else they will just like the other being bully people. In a family, these problem were more even worst then in the society. Family members, they know each others and these is the way to start to get what they want and ask the favor more and more. But sometimes when the one who is being pushed like this shout out their pain. I think i don't have to say that words out.